Day 2

Today was a good day for working out. I woke up at 5:45 to do P90X plyometrics and then did 20 minutes of cardio on the elliptical when I got home. I'm so proud of myself, I've been burning calories and eating right.

Breakfast: chocolate and peanutbutter protein shake
Lunch: Subway breakfast egg white sandwich stacked with veggies
Dinner: Small piece of steak and squash

I'm really excited about getting my body back the way it was. I have felt so self conscience since I had Mikayla. I look at my husband and I feel like I should look better for him. I don't want to be one of thoes people that just wishes and never does. I want to accomplish my goals and be the person I want to be. This is just the beginning. I feel a change in myself already as odd as that may seem, but it just feels like change is just in reach. Usually I feel pretty hopeless and jelous of the past me who could wear a size 4. Now I feel like I can do anything as long as I keep reaching and pushing myself.

Who I am

God has shown me that I just need to keep trusting in him. He is the foundation for everything I am. Nothing and no one can stand in the way of what he has created me to be. I'm a child of God and I'm proud to stand and say thank you to the one true God who has taken care of me when I needed him most and held me so many times when I have felt betrayed and unwanted. He is a just and loving God and I stand in awe of the beauty he has created and the light that has overcome the darkness in this messed up world. Thank you Lord for helping me see you for all that you are and nothing less.

our family

I want to go somewhere and start new. Someplace where no one knows our name and we can make a new home. I get so tired of life here in Arizona. I want to go travel the world and take my family along for the ride. Mikayla could learn so much. Shes already so smart. The other night she sang all the way through the alphabet and she can already count to ten! Shes such a smart two year old. I can't wait to teach her how to read and write. She makes me want to provide a better life for her and our family. Right now shes in a dance class. She did so well listening to the teacher and following instructions. She played freeze dance and froze every time the music stopped, I'm so excited for her to be able to function in a class. Now if we could just get her potty trained :) Cela is coming a long way too. She tries to crawl and can scoot backwards. She smiles so much. It reminds me of Cela Murillo. Shes always smiling just like Cela used to.

Please pray for Dan, hes having a really hard time with the karate school. Customers and just the stress of running everything is really getting to him. He gets really down and even has dreams about something going wrong at karate every night. Please pray that God would change our situation and bring him to a place where he enjoys life and isn't so stressed.

God Please show us what you want for our family. Where to live and what Dan should do. PLease help me through school and continue to protect our girls. Please help us to find some really good teachers that will make the karate school a better place for the kids to learn. Amen

My family

Lately things have been pretty crazy. Dan has summer camp and regular karate so I don't get to see him very much. It really stinks, he has to work all day. I've been going in to talk to new people now and then, but I miss seeing my husband. I really wish that he could have a normal job and come home in the evening. It would be so much better fo our family to be free from stress. Mikayla rarely gets to see him. Maybe in the morning if she wakes up when he does. I know it's just during the summer time, but I can't help but wish we had a different life. (work wise) My girls are both doing great. Mikayla is getting plenty of play time with th grandmas and Cela is good at being cute :). I love my family. Can't wait till the weekend so we can all spend some time together.